So, I was lost. I closed my retail studio, Art Blooms, in January 2014, and I feel like I have been searching for my professional self ever since. I have been through names, I have been through mediums. I have reinvented myself but was missing my grounding.
Over the last 15 months, I have often brought up the subject with my family. Wanting to use the Art Blooms name again, I asked them over and over again what they thought. Art Blooms, to them, was a place that they remember having to work at…a lot. It was the place that took away Thanksgivings and New Year’s Eves. It was where they had to celebrate their birthdays, and it was the place where they had to homeschool. On most days, they ate all their meals there, and for the last few months, we lived in the apartment upstairs. Art Blooms was our life and they didn’t particularly care for it.
For me, it was living my dream. A natural born work-a-holic, I absolutely loved it. From the painting on the walls to the product on the shelf, my soul was a part of the space. I loved having people come in, create, and leave with smiles. I loved that I was an entrepreneur, and artist, and a part of a growing business community. It was just…me.
I chose to close for some business reasons, but mostly personal reasons. My family was going through a transition that emotionally needed to be done in a different environment. Moving back to Florida, put distance between our NC life and the rejuvenation that our family needed to journey through. It was a good move. I was happy to let go of my dream for the sake of my family. It was the right decision.
Now everyone, for the most part, is in a better place. There are still the struggles; financial, education, pressures, and stress, but it is different. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. The pressure is still on me to support everyone so I have to be very smart in my decisions. I never have been very happy working for someone else but I tried when we first got back down here. It proved to me that once being my own boss spoiled my future employee status. I can’t do it. It is like the breath is sucked out of me and I am treading water so hard just to keep my head above water.
Rejuvenating Art Blooms puts a name on the projects that I have been working on for my next step. It is no longer a retail space, but it does name my space; the space I wish to fill in the world. It defines my belief in art being a part of everyone; they just have to have the opportunity to let it bloom.
Art Blooms is, in essence, my soul speaking to the world. I am going to let it shout!